YOUR MIND PONDERS WHAT TO WISH FOR

AS YOU LOOK APON A SHOOTING STAR

YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES AND WHEN THEY OPEN

YOU DONT KNOW WHERE YOU ARE

 

YOU JUST SEE 100'S OF CHILDREN

THEIR SMILES COULD LIGHT THE DARKEST SKIES

SINCE THERE NOT CRYING ALONE IN THE DARKNESS

AS THE SHOOTING STAR TELLS YOU WHY

 

FOR YOUR "THEIR" SHOOTING STAR!

SO THINK OF THIS IF YOU EVER FRET.

YOUR LOVE SO BRIGHT HELPED CHANGE ALL THEIR LIVES

YOU JUST DONT KNOW IT YET!

 

THEN YOU SEE A GIRL WHO SITS AT HOME

FEELING A LONELINESS SHE WISHES THAT WOULD END

YOU WATCH HER SHUT HER TEAR SHOT EYES

WISHING SHE COULD ONLY HAVE A FRIEND

 

YOU WERE THAT FRIEND TO MARCY

NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND JUST WHAT I SAY

YOU TOUCHED HER HEART WITH A PART OF YOUR SOUL

TIS THE REASON GOD HAS MADE YOU THIS WAY

 

YOUR PARENTS LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY

AND ARE PROUD OF THE WOAMAN YOU ARE

AND IF FOR YOU YOU THIS IS NOT ENOUGH

THEN YOU SHANT LOOK VERY FAR

 

DAY IN DAY OUT ALL THE SMILES

FROM EACH STRANGER THAT YOU GREET

SINCE YOUR SMILES SO CONTAGIOUS

IT INFECTS EVERYONE THAT THEY MEET

 

PLEASE , NEXT TIME YOUR FEELING LOST

AND FORGET JUST HOW SPEACIAL YOU REALLY ARE

YOU LOOK UP IN THE SKY

AND WISH UPON A SHOOTING STAR

your like my favorite movie

the one keep asking if they,ve seen

to anyone who will listen

bc your my fav scene

 

your like my favorite song

that keeps running through my head

allthoughi sing  it through the day

its still there when i go to bed

 

your like my favorite juice

the one that is most sweet

the only one that could quench this thirst

just no other can compete

 

your like my favorite star

that shines for me in the sky

the one that i know is mine

and never questions why

 

your like my favorite candy

 its sugar goes right to my brain

which i keep coming back for

cuz i feel like a kid again

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

IVE GOT A RAINBOW IN THIS HEART

AND ITS  NOT JUST ANY KIND

ITS ONE THAT ONLY YOU CAN SEE

AND THE TREASURE YOU WILL FIND

 

IVE GOT SUNSHINE IN THIS SOUL

AND I OWE IT ALL TO YOU

BECAUSE EVEN  WHEN ITS RAINS OUTSIDE

YOU MAKE THE SKY SEEM BLUE

 

IVE GOT YOU ON MY MIND

NO LONGER SHALL I WEEP

AND WHEN THE DAY IS DONE

I DREAM OF YOU WHEN I SLEEP

 

IVE GOT SINCERITY IN THIS SMILE

UNLIKE SO LONG AGO

AND WHILE IM SITTING HERE

I SMILE AS THESE WORDS FLOW

 

IVE GOT LOVE IN THESE ARMS

WHICH IM HOLDING OUT FOR YOU

UNTILL YOUR IN THESE ARMS

NO OTHER LOVE WILL DO

 

IVE GOT LUCK ON MY SIDE

AND I KNOW THAT I WILL WIN

SINCE I FOUND YOUR WHELL OF LOVE

AND  DECIDED TO GIVE IT  A SPIN

 

 

 

 

A FEEL A EMPTYNESS INSIDE

ITS ONE I SIMPLY CAN NOT HIDE

FOR THE LOVE OF FAMILY SO FAR AWAY

WHICH  SEEMS TO GROW WITH EVERYDAY

AS I AWAKE ALONE AND THERE NOT THERE

MY HEART NEEDS THEM LIKE MY LUNGS NEED AIR

EVEN THOUGH WE HAD ARGUED OVER THE YEARS

YOU  STAYED BY MY SIDE WIPEING AWAY MY TEARS

I HAD GROWN UP FAST WORKING TO HELP OUT  AT HOME

SHAPING MY SOUL INTO THIS MAN I HAD GROWN

I REMEMBER THE CHRISTMAS THAT I COULDNT COME HOME

I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP THAT DAY I SPENT IT ALONE

MY HEART BREAKING IN TWO THAT I COULDNT BE

THERE CHRISTAS MORNING WITH MY ONLY FAMILY

THE ONLY FAMILY I EVER HAD

 WHO DIDNT JUDGE ME FOR THE GOOD AND THE BAD

WHO HAD STAYED UP ALL NIGHT MAKING ME TESTS

SO I WOULDNT FAIL, MOM YOUR THE BEST

WHO PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE AND BROUGHT THE BEST OUT OF ME

THANK YOU MY APRIL I'LL SIMPLY SAY WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

TO MY COMPITION IN GAMES AND MY BEST FRIEND

SOMEDAY  MY FRANKIE WELL BE TOGETHER AGAIN

TO MY TOUGEST CRITIC AND TO ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD

KEEP YOUR STICK ON THE ICE, I MISS YOU DAD.

I REMEBER THE DAY I LEFT AS I GOT ON THAT PLANE

I WAS ALLREADY THINKING WHEN ID SEE YOU AGAIN

AS THE PLANE SWAM THROUGH A SEA OF CLOUDS IN THE SKY

I  BEGAN TO THINK JUST HOW MUCH I RELY

IN THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE IN WHICH MONEY CANT BUY

NOW ALONE IN MY SEAT IN FRONT OF STRANGERS I CRY

SITTING DOWN IN THE MORNING TALKING TO DAD ABOUT NEWS

I ALLWAYS LOVED HEARING YOUR THOUGHTS ON POLITAICAL VIEWS

WATCHING SHOWS WITH MY MOM EVEN ONES I DIDNT LIKE

AND HEARING HER SING KEREOKEE INTO THE LATE HOURS OF NIGHT

SITTING WITH APRIL MAKING HER LAUGH WHILE WE WORKED

FOR MAKING ME SMILE INSIDE WHERE MY SADNESS HAD LURKED

TO FRANKIE THE BESTFRIEND I EVER HAD ALL THESE YEARS

 I WATCHED YOU GROW WHILE WE PLAYED NEW METAL GEARS

STILL ALONE ON THIS PLANE I SEE THE GROUND COMING MORE CLEAR

MY TIME FOR NEW THINGS IN LIFE WAS COMING MORE NEAR

AND WITH THAT FEELING I THEN FELT ONLY FEAR

WORRIED HOW LONG BEFORE WE'D TALK  AGAIN AND HOW SOON WOULD THAT BE

BECUASE I NEEDED TO TELL YOU I LOVE YOU AND JUST WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME

 

 

 

 

the snow has finally melted as i put away this shovel, i let my heart absorb the rays of the sun and yet once again feelings like seasons is a reminder of beter things to come.i finally shoveled that snow out of my heart and welcome the fresh flowers that will soon bloom there .

things have been great love my job i miss my family still but we chat often and i take it for what its worth bc its all i have..

 

fin-layson

HOW DOES ONE PASS TIME

   SINCE I CANT PASS IT WITH YOU

        EVERYWHERE THERES REMINDERS

             OF MOMENTS SHARED BEFORE WE WERE THROUGH

 

 

                   I WONDER HOW DOES ONE LAUGH

                       WHEN THERE SECRETLY BROKEN INSIDE

                            SHOULD THEY SMILE AND PRETEND

                              EVEN THOUGH WE SEE THE TRUTH IN THERE EYES

                              

                                   SHOULD I THROW OUT THIS CALANDER

                                     BE A WASTE ITS STILL NEW

                                        I FLIP THROUGH THE MONTHS

                                          THERE  DATES CIRCLED, FOR PLANS WE'LL NEVER DO

                                               

                                              WHY DO I HIDE FROM THIS MIRROR

                                               WHEN IM JUST LOOKING AT ME

                                                   THE LIGHT FLICKERS AS I LEAN IN CLOSE

                                                       LYING AS I SMILE PRETENDING TO LOOK HAPPY

                                                          

                                                          INSIDE THERES A GOOD HEART AND PERSONALITY THAT SHINES

                                                            NOW BITTERNESS LIGERES HIDING THE PERSON INSIDE

                                                               

 

well now , where to start really!I have been enjoying Vancouver as much as i can be the last 2 weeks. I work like 10 hours a day on sailboat out in Richmond.I am also going to spend Valentines Day alone this year ,but most importantly i will not be spending it with the only person i really want to and shes just so so far away now. How i know now how much i still love her and will allways it seems to be.Its going to be a long day mostly cuz i have a 12 hour work day tommorow,and i will be by myself the whole day its poop i tell you.poop!I would give up smokes extra money going out for dinner or entertainment of any kind for the next month id i could spend  10 minitues with Mary tommorow.Ive been spending so much time lately talking to her coming to understand everything that went wrong qand what could possibly make right.Im not one to hope on false promisses and wishfull thinking for either of us but we have such a crystal clear image of our futres and it seems so right. I dont know i just miss her so much and secretly think of her often. well hope everyones day is speacial and filled with love and around the ones you care about the most.take care and please keep your stick on the ice!

 

ghost of you

is all that i have left

its all that i have left of you to hold 

i awake in the night

to find theres no one there but me

and nothing left of what we were at all

 

i have been

searching for

traces of

what we were

 

ghost of you

is all that i have left

its all that i have left to hold

i awake in the night

to find theres no one there but me

and nothing left of what we were at all.

 

keeping track..

of times once gone..

there in my memory..

is where they belong..

 

some of them joyous..

some of them sad..

some of them help..

even when everythings bad...

 

running wild...

while i try 2 sleep...

i toss i turn..

i just want 2 sleep....

 

alone there i wake..

head cluttered and messed..

my mind drifts 2 you..

then i finally get dressed..

 

i get tore up..

when i think of you..

im fed up..

theres no escaping you..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

well i was a lil down last night but with the help of some friends they got me smilling..and all it took really was 2 put a smile on there faces 2 make me all beter really how i love 2 do that.well its going 2 be anothere long day filled with chair bum.

why must we stay ...where we dont belong

why must we stay,where we dont belong

cuz thers never going 2 be enough space

so eat the meek..its allways going 2 be a delacasy.

 

so lick your chops ..and eat the meek

the factory prducing our fears..

bottle capped and distributed here

and sold our hearts for a reasonal price..

my  love ones payed for my freedom

tore out my heart till my love wilted

threw it out 2 cold

it seems to be replacing my love

 

why must i stay ..where i dont belong

 

why...must ...i stay...

where...i...dont...belong..

why must  i stay

where my heart dont belong...

cant get the song dont cha out of my head ..its invading my thoughts...2day is beautifull once again im taking full advantage of this cuz there arnt many nice days left...getting smashed 2night after work and waking up in a ditch

lol

no but seriously i feel like a million bucks 2day and i woke up kicking and screeming at this twisted life..

look out im on fire 2night going 2 round up the crew and get into some trouble..lol

right from the mouth of kurt himself

one baby 2 another says im lucky 2 met you...it is now my duty 2 completely drain you..get x-cited

i also had the best damn sleep in had in months last night .going 2 stop by terries 2day get corpses bride again and stewie griffin:the untold story.

and now its your duty 2 completely drain me...

dont cha wish ya boyfriend was cute like me...lol just kidding..not into myself like that but ive heard that so much lately and my eyes 2.lots of really nice peeps stopping by met some really nice ones through here.

wish i could get ahold of my buddy adam steele in bc i miss him so and wonder if him and mia r sill doing fine..

so pumped 4 tonight 2 drink  and get some much needed closer on this alchohol lobotamy..

time will tell if not the alchol will do fine 4 now

cheers